you still need a lil' bit of rain to create rainbow

title: I should not have
date: Friday, 25 December 2009
time:7:57 PM

You know what's the best thing when you are in a relationship? Its when there is a cooperation and understanding between the couples. It's a good thing to know when they are happy and even when they are down, they know how to treat each other just right. It's good, isn't it? I can turn green caused of jealousy on how wonderful they managed it. But things wont be right and won't be balance if there is not a single argument going on. Talking about argument, you can think of me.

I never actually believe in happy endings or any happy things thus the anger and hatred about something or anything is penetrated deep inside me. I dont know why and I dont where I got it, but I think it's genetic. My temper is way beyond the sky or maybe even the moon. I dont know how to fake a smile, I dont know how to act cool when I'm not cause one thing that I believe in is to show what yo really are in a relationship, what you really feel in fact. I always say that the other half never understood what we want or need but now I think, in my case that is, it's me who never try to understand anything. I am one of the girl who wants everything to go they way she planned and when it doesn't turn out well, the temper burst out out of her. And no, guys, you have to know that we do exist Don't just laugh and say that it's crap cause it's not. It might just turned your day down and end up scratching your head when your gf is like that.

I should be grateful that my bf is always, always I said, being patient with me. I never really get him why and how can he endure all that when I can't. That's the amazing thing. But me, I cannot. I just can't. I shouldn't have told him that I like him in the first place cause it's him that needs to go through all the pain that I caused. It's all because, I am never sane. But just so you know, I feel the way you feel towards me and I think it's just too much that I am being like this.

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title: :)
date: Monday, 21 December 2009
time:11:57 PM

I am so tired to begin with any words actually but since I'm in the mood, why not?:) Had a very fun yet tiring day just now. Went out around afternoon with the bf to go for my check ups at the skin specialist then went off to the mall to catch a movie. Well, initially that was the plan then we bumped into Javon(God, I miss him!!) and he brought us to Secret Recipe. NYAMANNNNN the foods!! & the cakes, OMG. :( I want more. haha, the budget wasn't really allowing us to have both, the food and the movie but since our stomach were grumbling then whatever lah. :P Its worthed jua bah. After a while, we left Javon with his friend, Jelphine(sp?) there.

The bf was sleepy cause he didnt have enough sleep like he said but I didnt really care about it cause its his own fault. He's getting used to sleep around 6 in the morning and I, in the other hand have to wait and wake him up at 2-3 in the afternoon! I mean, you're not a batman, are you?:) So to fix his sleeping routine, I brought him to Hua Ho Manggis just to do some survey on the goods until 7pm. (Now, yes while im typing in here, he's having a sound sleep, Thank God! ) Jirai called & asked us to join for bowling and I only have $5 in hand and few coins, so ikut sajalah. Hariz treated me makan kan, so aku belanja bowling saja. fair treat bah. :P was just watching them play and chat with the other two brothers, Nabil & Naqib which turned out to be my clowns for the night :P siuk lah. Then went off to Pasar mlm and headed back to my place to eat. Okay that's it, toodles! :)

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title: I should have known
date: Sunday, 20 December 2009
time:7:06 PM

I should have known that waiting is a very tiring routine. Today, it actually ticked me off and it totally did take away my good mood away. It's a small matter though & it might be a silly thing to be mad about, if you are reading this,whoever you are, but to think about it, it doesn't make any difference to me. whether it's small or big or massive, you can name it, it actually matters to me. Enough said man. enough said. Nevertheless, I am grateful that you are actually here, it's just..the way I am being handled is pretty much not..right. Call me selfish or self-centered, it has the same meaning no? it's just.........

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title: SS501
date: Friday, 18 December 2009
time:11:49 PM

They are freaking HOT!!!!! :( How can they be very awesome blossom? Like, just look at them! SIGH. I'm in love :P

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title: Happy Ma'al Hijrah 1431
date: Thursday, 17 December 2009
time:6:31 PM

I couldn't be more grateful that I am still breathing and that I am still living my life to the fullest, nearly, I am reaching but yes, It's been a very good year for me and Im very grateful for it. At times that I think I wasn't, it was just a temporary phase filled with anger and confusion & that I was pretty bit numb to top it all of but nevertheless, to those out there, forgive and forget whats in the past and let us start all over again, a new beginning. :) Life is a long journey and there's yet too many things to do or yet to achieve, so let's begin with His blessings. Always with His blessings. Amin. :)

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title: it's a miracle baaah
date:
time:12:49 PM

Sometimes you might wonder why on earth did it happen, why did it happen to you, why not in the next ten years? why now? you question everything that revolves around you. you make assumptions about it. why? It's just nature what. Well of course you're curious about almost everything in this world now aren't you? But at some point, you'll say to your self that it was a mistake to even question about it and not just do it. are we on the same page here cause I can see that I am drifting away from my initial topic which I now forgot. SIGH! short term memory man, I tell you, it sucks big time! why oh why? NAH SEE. I question about it when I know it's my own fault. It's me who didn't make any effort to boost up my memory, to eat those vitamins. it's been always me. Instead of questioning about it, why not just do what you need to do? As simple as it sounds, it is not that easy though. Just pray for a miracle to happen.

You know what I think of miracle? A 10,000 dollar notes falls from the sky, which yes I doubt will happen in a million years. :D Now thats miracle yaw!

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title: Happy birthday my dearest geek :)
date:
time:10:07 AM

You might think that I forgot but I'm not forgetting abt it and I wont forget abt it& I don't frgt abt it! say it say it ;P

Time flies so fast and now, you're a grown up lady! Not that Im saying you're not but it 2-0! heheheh. I'm glad to see the PRs are celebrating your birthday while we're here in Brunei wishing you all the happy things and blessings which is the only thing we can do for you now. Yes, your besties here wish you're here so that you can feel what's its like to have your birthday with us again. :( 4 years in a row! or was it 5 you missed it here? hehehe nevertheless, Im sure that you're enjoying your moment with the beloved ones there too! & you got nice purse over there & dress too! :D still voting for the white one cause it looks sweet on you :P but the one Kimy got for you is gorgeous too, RAWWRR! :P HAHA.

Oh yeah, *ehem ehem* Happy birthday to you~, happy birthday to you~, happy birthday to Farahhhh~ happy birthday to you!! :D hmph! I dont have your picture here but in my hard disk, nyeh. Anyway, you know we all love you to bits here and we're wishing you all the happiness in the world & may you're blessed by Him endlessly. Amin :) cause you're pretty much blessed honey, perfect curve ;) perfect brain! lovely friends, family who cares for you and love you for who you are, birthday that falls during holiday! :P and yet, you're such a petite lil' girl but you have it all! what else could you possibly not have? :D

I love you honey! Enjoy your day. mwaah!

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